Blogging Again...

I had awe ha moment this week when was talking to my friend about all the mommy blogs out there, and how most of them make me feel... well less than perfect.

So I decided to start blogging again, with no sugar coating, no details spared, just my life. And my attempt to live another day as a mom.

Today was one of those days that you just wish it would start over the minute it happened.

3am Lilly my oldest comes into my room and says she wants to cuddle... in her bed... all that is fine whatever.
We get to her room, I don't want the white blanket I want to pink blanket, I don't want any blankets, no I want the white blanket... ahhhhh
We get that resolved, no blanket, just sheet

Water, I need water! ok... I get her water... NO! the pink one, not the green one.... ahhhh
I tell her she has the pink one or nothing, thats it.

I cuddle in... she kicks, wiggles, and cries... "don't touch me, get out of my bed." so I do... "no mom don't leave." so i get out. "don't touch me, get out of my bed." and so on, until I just can't take it anymore.... SWAT.... crying. She cuddles me, cause thats what you do... you cuddle the person who just spanked you.  She falls asleep, I sneak out.
4am

Five minutes later, "MOM!!!" crying, screaming.... ahhhh. I push Andy awake, because of course he has slept through all of this (oh to by a guy) and I say you better go, or I may loose it!

He goes in, says "Lilly, stop crying go to sleep" and she does..... wah wah at least now we all get to sleep.

4:15am
we are all asleep again... it's nice....

6:30am
Audrey wakes up and the day begins!

On the up side of today, IT'S EASTER! and GENERAL CONFERENCE! so my body my be exhausted, but my spirit is full, and I have candy in the house to get me through the rest!

Until Next Time
A Blurry Visioned Momma


Ps some pictures of our Egg Hunt!

Audrey getting it figured out. 

today was her first egg hunt

Lillyan Acting like a pro and getting all the eggs

Matching dresses made by Grandma Lisa

Baby in the Middle is there cousin

8 months of crazy love!

So lets see, where to start. These last few months have been good, and crazy! lilly is getting her personality quick and strong! She has the cutest little smile, she scrunches up her whole face! so dang cute! lover her so much. However, with the cute has also come the wine, she loves to roll around on the floor making all sorts of fake crying, and crazy squeals. All of this is to get my attention, or have me pick her up. If i give in, it's only because "my poor nerves" (pride and prejudice) can't take it anymore. She then starts laughing like haha mom i got you to do what i wanted! silly little 8 month old!
She finally got some teeth! and they came in on my dad's birthday! So lovely, she was teething the whole time we where up at our family cabin! the week was fine but the driving sucked. 7 hours in a car with a teething baby... count me out, but i was in! here are some awesome pictures of our cabin trip! Lillyan LOVES the cabin just as much as her mommy (aka me)

squintie smile!

Anyway the night is getting late! and i know my lilly bug is going to be up at 5ish, so i better get my sleep on! until next time! hoping in the next week or so! good night and see ya

My baby girl is six month old already! rolling over, sitting up, and eating food that makes her poop stink! she is so dang cute! she talks (by talking i mean jabbers) and smiles and laughs and is the best thing thats ever happened in our lives!

Things are still a struggle, as far as money goes. I'm looking for a job, something i can do at home! My sister, sister-inlaw crochets these awesome things! She offered me work once, but i was crazy prego and all i wanted to do was get my baby out of me! so i left her an email, and also txt her! here is hoping she gets them! Not only would it be awesome to have some money coming in, but it would help out so much to be able to stay home with Lilly! i don't want to miss one moment of my little girls life! including the hard times, and the crying and the stink! She is what i've always wanted! I hate living pay check to pay check, but if it means I get to spend every moment i have with my little one i'll take it!


I just had my gallbladder out! it will be a week on monday, and i'm still having some pain! the doctor said to expect 2 weeks, but ya know how they just say things to keep themselfs safe from all those awesome people who will have a cold, and end up taking the doctors for an easy million some how. So i was hoping to be up and around with in the week, but no such luck! so everything will just have to wait.

I think that's all for now! see ya when i see ya
alyson

a post to make up for the lack of posting

 This has been a crazy couple of months! lets start with Easter! We had Lillyans first Easter at grandma and grandpa Jensen's! ( my parents) I'm not sure if she had very much fun! She was coming down with something! The next day I took her into the doctor, it turns out her lovely cousins gave her bronchitis! yeah family! haha but she is so cute, and now she is better! so good! These pictures are of Easter day! right after dinner! so so so cute!

After she got over her sickness we moved on to other trials! like having andy's grandma get in a really bad car accident and having a lot of complications! at this point she is totally out of it, not responding to anyone, and having one thing after another go wrong! right now I just keep praying and hoping that everything turns out ok. because if things stay the way they are now, Lisa (andy's mom) will have a long road ahead of her!

We have been in our new (old) house for almost a month! and i have nothing on the walls... it kinda looks like we live here! We did get Lilly's room painted! thank goodness it's a cute green color! now i just have to figure out how to get things up on the walls.

Money has been tight! really tight! I want to stay home with my little girl! and andy works so hard to make it possible for me, but at the same time i feel like i need to contribute more than just doing the house hold things and raising our baby! i feel like i need to bring money in! ahhh i'm sure things will get better!

we started lilly on rice cereal! she is doing good! and loves it! haha of course she would she's a little chunk! i love her little rolls!

This is a really random post! but i had to make up for the lack of post!

The thing about blogging is...

The thing about blogging is... you have to have time! haha, or make time! and my new goal is to write something every week, about my my baby! and growing family! she is getting so big! so fast! She is 4 months old! she is 17lbs and in the 98th % for her age! i love her she is amazing! and always so happy! she found her hand last month, and now i fear that thing will never leave her mouth! She is talking and cooing! i love all her little sounds! she is Amazing

Insurance!

I promised myself i would never do this! but i need and outlet, and right now it's my blog. So the day Lillyan was born, Andy called up the insurance and added her! done and done. Well for the last month I've been getting calls from the hospital, the pediatrician and everyone else who helped us get our little girl here and safe, telling me that the insurance denied the claims. So Andy got on the phone, i got on the phone and we thought we had it all fixed. It turns out we didn't fix it, because today i just got a bill from the hospital for 10 thousand some odd dollars, and an insurance invoice saying that they had denied over 17 thousand dollars worth of claims for Lilly. OH MY! So tomorrow, and the next day and the next day Andy is going to be calling his HR and our insurance and try to get this whole mess worked out! I think the hardest part for me is not being able to really do anything! first of all, Andy is the employ so his HR won't even talk to me about any of this, second of all this whole thing isn't even our fault! we did everything we were supposed to, and some were along the lines someone messed up, and now we are in lot of hurt, because they are saying that if we don't pay within the next month it will go to collections! and we are just waiting for people to get up off there lazy butts and fix what THEY messed up on.  I need to sleep, and i can't because of these stupid people not doing there stupid jobs! i just worry about what happens if they can't fix it! and where and the heck are we going to find 17 thousand plus dollars to pay the medical bills!

The simple joys

This week Lillyan started to smile! I'm not talking I just filled my pants smile. I'm talking full blown, I know you are my momma and i love that you talk to me in that funny voice, smile! Oh man! Everything up to this point was validated with that very first smile! She is amazing, I tell her all the time that i stole her! I stole her from Heaven and they can't have her back! haha I know she doesn't understand me, but i truly feel like I am not good enough to have such an amazing little person in my life that i must have had to steal her! I know it doesn't work like that, and we must have done something right to get someone so perfect and beautiful!

Lillyan is amazing, she is gaining wait like crazy! She is doing so good at breast feeding, and sleeping 6 hours a night! she only cries when she is hungry, or so sleepy she can't put herself down! She is growing so fast! every time I give her a bath and I am lotioning her little body I start to miss how little she was, but I am enjoying getting to play with her more, and not have her be so delicate!

Random note! I joined pintrest today... not sure if that's how you spell it. My aunt sent me and invite! so now i get to see what all the buzz is about! i have a feeling I'm  going to love it!