8 months of crazy love!

So lets see, where to start. These last few months have been good, and crazy! lilly is getting her personality quick and strong! She has the cutest little smile, she scrunches up her whole face! so dang cute! lover her so much. However, with the cute has also come the wine, she loves to roll around on the floor making all sorts of fake crying, and crazy squeals. All of this is to get my attention, or have me pick her up. If i give in, it's only because "my poor nerves" (pride and prejudice) can't take it anymore. She then starts laughing like haha mom i got you to do what i wanted! silly little 8 month old!
She finally got some teeth! and they came in on my dad's birthday! So lovely, she was teething the whole time we where up at our family cabin! the week was fine but the driving sucked. 7 hours in a car with a teething baby... count me out, but i was in! here are some awesome pictures of our cabin trip! Lillyan LOVES the cabin just as much as her mommy (aka me)

squintie smile!

Anyway the night is getting late! and i know my lilly bug is going to be up at 5ish, so i better get my sleep on! until next time! hoping in the next week or so! good night and see ya

My baby girl is six month old already! rolling over, sitting up, and eating food that makes her poop stink! she is so dang cute! she talks (by talking i mean jabbers) and smiles and laughs and is the best thing thats ever happened in our lives!

Things are still a struggle, as far as money goes. I'm looking for a job, something i can do at home! My sister, sister-inlaw crochets these awesome things! She offered me work once, but i was crazy prego and all i wanted to do was get my baby out of me! so i left her an email, and also txt her! here is hoping she gets them! Not only would it be awesome to have some money coming in, but it would help out so much to be able to stay home with Lilly! i don't want to miss one moment of my little girls life! including the hard times, and the crying and the stink! She is what i've always wanted! I hate living pay check to pay check, but if it means I get to spend every moment i have with my little one i'll take it!


I just had my gallbladder out! it will be a week on monday, and i'm still having some pain! the doctor said to expect 2 weeks, but ya know how they just say things to keep themselfs safe from all those awesome people who will have a cold, and end up taking the doctors for an easy million some how. So i was hoping to be up and around with in the week, but no such luck! so everything will just have to wait.

I think that's all for now! see ya when i see ya
alyson

a post to make up for the lack of posting

 This has been a crazy couple of months! lets start with Easter! We had Lillyans first Easter at grandma and grandpa Jensen's! ( my parents) I'm not sure if she had very much fun! She was coming down with something! The next day I took her into the doctor, it turns out her lovely cousins gave her bronchitis! yeah family! haha but she is so cute, and now she is better! so good! These pictures are of Easter day! right after dinner! so so so cute!

After she got over her sickness we moved on to other trials! like having andy's grandma get in a really bad car accident and having a lot of complications! at this point she is totally out of it, not responding to anyone, and having one thing after another go wrong! right now I just keep praying and hoping that everything turns out ok. because if things stay the way they are now, Lisa (andy's mom) will have a long road ahead of her!

We have been in our new (old) house for almost a month! and i have nothing on the walls... it kinda looks like we live here! We did get Lilly's room painted! thank goodness it's a cute green color! now i just have to figure out how to get things up on the walls.

Money has been tight! really tight! I want to stay home with my little girl! and andy works so hard to make it possible for me, but at the same time i feel like i need to contribute more than just doing the house hold things and raising our baby! i feel like i need to bring money in! ahhh i'm sure things will get better!

we started lilly on rice cereal! she is doing good! and loves it! haha of course she would she's a little chunk! i love her little rolls!

This is a really random post! but i had to make up for the lack of post!

The thing about blogging is...

The thing about blogging is... you have to have time! haha, or make time! and my new goal is to write something every week, about my my baby! and growing family! she is getting so big! so fast! She is 4 months old! she is 17lbs and in the 98th % for her age! i love her she is amazing! and always so happy! she found her hand last month, and now i fear that thing will never leave her mouth! She is talking and cooing! i love all her little sounds! she is Amazing

Insurance!

I promised myself i would never do this! but i need and outlet, and right now it's my blog. So the day Lillyan was born, Andy called up the insurance and added her! done and done. Well for the last month I've been getting calls from the hospital, the pediatrician and everyone else who helped us get our little girl here and safe, telling me that the insurance denied the claims. So Andy got on the phone, i got on the phone and we thought we had it all fixed. It turns out we didn't fix it, because today i just got a bill from the hospital for 10 thousand some odd dollars, and an insurance invoice saying that they had denied over 17 thousand dollars worth of claims for Lilly. OH MY! So tomorrow, and the next day and the next day Andy is going to be calling his HR and our insurance and try to get this whole mess worked out! I think the hardest part for me is not being able to really do anything! first of all, Andy is the employ so his HR won't even talk to me about any of this, second of all this whole thing isn't even our fault! we did everything we were supposed to, and some were along the lines someone messed up, and now we are in lot of hurt, because they are saying that if we don't pay within the next month it will go to collections! and we are just waiting for people to get up off there lazy butts and fix what THEY messed up on.  I need to sleep, and i can't because of these stupid people not doing there stupid jobs! i just worry about what happens if they can't fix it! and where and the heck are we going to find 17 thousand plus dollars to pay the medical bills!

The simple joys

This week Lillyan started to smile! I'm not talking I just filled my pants smile. I'm talking full blown, I know you are my momma and i love that you talk to me in that funny voice, smile! Oh man! Everything up to this point was validated with that very first smile! She is amazing, I tell her all the time that i stole her! I stole her from Heaven and they can't have her back! haha I know she doesn't understand me, but i truly feel like I am not good enough to have such an amazing little person in my life that i must have had to steal her! I know it doesn't work like that, and we must have done something right to get someone so perfect and beautiful!

Lillyan is amazing, she is gaining wait like crazy! She is doing so good at breast feeding, and sleeping 6 hours a night! she only cries when she is hungry, or so sleepy she can't put herself down! She is growing so fast! every time I give her a bath and I am lotioning her little body I start to miss how little she was, but I am enjoying getting to play with her more, and not have her be so delicate!

Random note! I joined pintrest today... not sure if that's how you spell it. My aunt sent me and invite! so now i get to see what all the buzz is about! i have a feeling I'm  going to love it!

Starting tonight!

tonight we are trying to get lillyan to sleep in her own room! so far she has been in her bassinet next to our bed, easy to get to and fast to sooth. now she is down the hall and the monitor is our only way of hearing her. it's a little scary for me, and i doubt I'll sleep! seeing how i am in her room in the rocking chair typing this! haha. i think alot of it is that i am trying to let Andy get as much sleep as he can! he is after all the bread winner, and i need him to be at this best! he drives truck, so it is important that he can sleep well, and be fully rested so he doesn't get drowsy! i want him to come home every night!

I love our new little family! and it will be even better when we can be out on our own, and not a burden on my parents anymore! and it is happening soon! like as in March! we are moving back to the little house in spanish fork! Andy's dad got a job and they will be moving out! so we are taking over the space! I can't wait! I'm super excited to actually get to paint and decorate a room for Lillyan! I'm torn on the colors. However, pink is a giving. I want green, but i also want brown. Andy's mom made this amazing blanket for a crib that is pink and green and fuzzy and awesome. I also have a blanket that is beautiful from my moms good friend that is pink and brown! i think i just have to decided which one I'm going to my design around.

I'm sure I've already said this, but I'm so happy to be a mom! She has grown so much in the last month i can't even believe it! She is so strong and so smart! we have started to call her squeaky, and our little monkey! she makes little sounds like Aboo off Aladdin! haha she is so cute! and getting so chunkers!

 I have been worried about her the last couple of days. Every time she eats she cries for a good 30 mins after. i don't know if it's all bubbles, or if there is something wrong with my milk, or I'm eating the wrong things. i just worry. I've been using a nipple shield, she has a hard time latching, but tonight I fed her with out it and had the same after math from free boobin as i did with the shield! ahhh... I'm just at a loss as far as that goes! i guess i will just have to ask the doctor when i go for her two month appointment, as long as i can make it that long! i guess if it doesn't get better I'll go in before then! or call.

I am so in love with my baby girl! she is a miracle! i want more kids someday, but today I'm grateful  for the little girl who was sent into our lives. I just hope i don't mess her up to bad! She is everything to me, we are so lucky! She was born on the first day of December, at 6:55am after many hours of labor! She was 7lbs 11oz of pure madsen! she looks just like her daddy! and it's a good thing he's cute! She has this little button nose, brown hair, and brown eyes. and i already miss her! haha i know that sounds funny! but she is getting so big! I want to take a picture of her every second just so i don't miss anything! I blinked and she has already out grown her new born cloths!

I'm so thankful for my amazing husband! he is such a great man, and my best friend. I know the best friend thing is used and abused when it comes to women talking about their husbands. But, i mean it! I can't dream of doing this with anyone else! he is amazing I'm grateful for all that we have, and all that we will have in the future! more kids or not!

I am also so grateful to my father in heaven! He is my rock, I'm so grateful that i have been giving this perfect little soul to teach that gospel! I am even more grateful for the atonement of Christ then I ever have been! Not only did Jesus suffer for our sins, but God gave his son! i understand more than ever how hard that must have been. I loved my little girl from the moment I found out she was growing! I know that my father in heaven is real, He knows me, and gave me my little Lilly, because it was my hearts deepest wish! and he knows whats in my heart more than anyone! I know that if I'm faithful to him and to my faith that he will help me take care of my wish! I pray that she will grow strong and healthy, and have a happy life! I hope she loves God and Jesus! I hope she is kind and loves her family! I hope i can teach her these things and be a good example! Starting now.

It's food time for baby girl, so i guess I'll leave the rest of my ranting for another day!